Birthday Scarf

So I haven't crocheted much at all, but I do know how and with things the way they are financially around here, I decided to try my hand at a scarf for Pumpkin's birthday.

What do you think??

Friday Felicities

In Memory of  Nattie

*Eating Catfish tonight

*a clean living room

*kids capable of fixing their own lunch

*old, I mean really old books

*cleaned out storage room

*my new laptop

*friends

My thoughts and prayers go out to Ft. Hood and the entire military community at large.

Morning by Morning His Mercies I see.........

I was reading my friend Dana's Blog -- So, Now What? and realized something.  I am in exactly the same  place right now.  Different circumstances and different events that led up to this moment in time, but I am in exactly the same place.  I am having to take it one day at time, sometimes moment by moment to get through the day.  

In the shower as I was pondering this point, God directed my thoughts to the familiar lilies of the field, birds of the air passage.  A passage I taught in Sunday School just THREE days ago.  It resonated with me then, and even more so now.  That and this gem Dana gave me this morning Lamentations 3:22-23.  So at this point in my life I will resolve to take it one day at a time, lean on my God and leave the rest to Him.

Road bumps

One thing I have to accept about real life is the fact that it does in fact involve mood swings, of which I had a couple today.  However the learning curve is what I choose to do with said swings.  I have a tendency to dwell on them and therefore make them worse.   Especially when the trigger is a mistake that I made.  

Today I am having to choose not to dwell on them, pray leave my mess in God's lap, and go forward from that. It is hard to do, because I am human and I realize that actions and choices result in consequences and I realize that I must live up to the consequences. But yet I am praying for grace and mercy, like I deserve it, which I know I don't.  It is a catch 22.

Thank you Lord for undeserved grace and mercy, and the grace to accept the consequences of the actions and choices I make.    

Back to Real Life

One of the things God has been working in my heart lately is routine and self discipline. I work well when I have external forces directing my steps and goals, even the small daily ones such as getting out of bed and keeping up with housework etc. I don't do so well, however, with self discipline, making and sticking to my own goals for the day, week, etc. It is something that I need to work on.

This came in to focus for me last week, when I discovered, realized, that I was truly slipping into a depressive state of mind. And that I needed to deal with it before it got worse. For me that includes getting into a regular sleep schedule - especially getting up at a specific time in the mornings -- and getting the day going. It also involves keeping moving getting the little things done that pile up around here and become big things.

It will also include personal study time and writing time. I realize, now more than ever, I must write out thoughts in order to process them. It is the way I am wired. I don't speak up in conversations, especially deep conversations, because it takes me awhile to process things and figure out exactly how to articulate what I am thinking and feeling. Often when I try to speak without thinking/ writing it through, I wind up seemingly to talk myself in circles. So I need to sit down and write, some of that will be here, some in my own journal or studies.

It will also include an overhaul of the way I handle the family finances and the kitchen meal times etc. Being proactive instead of reactive in our spending habits and bookkeeping. Tracking spending, menus, etc.

These and other things will probably be tracked as the month progresses and afterwards...........

NaBloPoMo -- Take 2

Okay so this is the 'official' National Blog Posting Month.  I am going to do it this year.  I strive to post everyday for the entire month.  I am intending this to be a jump start I need to get into blogging again.

I am using this blog instead of my other one because I hope to make this one my main blog,  not to mention that the name of my other one is outdated -- I am no longer the mom of THREE little bugs, I  now have one more on the way, to be born in late February.

He is definitely part of the story that God is writing in my life, obviously.   Since he isn't here yet, he doesn't have his nickname, that is something that my children grow into, so for now I will just call him Little Bit.  

Anyway that is my first official post for NaBloPoMo for November 2009