Waiting............

Quite frankly waiting is the pits.....I wanted to use stronger language but I won't.  I commented to a friend of mine that I am still floundering when it comes to my writing, and well to be honest, my theme too.  And she so gently? reminded me that maybe I'm not floundering, but in reality waiting. And that comment almost brought tears to my eyes.

Not because she made it, nor how she made it, nothing about her at all.  But because of me. And the fact that I don't.like.to.wait.  I hate it.  Especially for something that I know nothing about, but someone else does.  To me that is the hardest kind of waiting. To discover, to find out, to understand......

Let me explain, if you have a surprise for me,  just surprise me with it. DON"T tell me you have a surprise for me and then tell me I have to wait to find out what it is. If the surprise is something in my future let me be in my own little life until such time that you can reveal the surprise, THEN tell me about it.  It is that unknown thing again.  That fear.

Isn't however, just like God, to use the thing that drives you nuts the most to teach you something.  So I decided, right here and now to wait on Him, whose Will is perfect and for my good and His glory.

And of course the verse I was meditating on as I went to sleep last night comes to mind

Be Still (sound like waiting some more), And Know that I am God.   Psalm 46:10a